The CEO of My Life

Originally published on November 17, 2018 by the Montrose Daily Press.

I’ve been watching Gray’s Anatomy for an embarrassingly large number of years. In one of the early seasons, Dr. Christina Yang announced, “There’s only been three careers I’ve ever wanted – ruler of my own planet, Wonder Woman, or a surgeon. And I don’t see any invisible planets or extra countries lying around.” Early in my own career, I latched onto that ideal for my own aspirations. Though blood makes me a little queasy (so surgeon is out), I’ve always sought leadership roles.

In my quest for the CEO title, it seemed only “natural” that I make large decisions on my own and trust myself to make the right ones. Though I have been saved for 20 years, it took me a good 17 of those to realize I don’t make a particularly good CEO of my own life. The decisions I’ve made on my own have landed me in some questionable places at best.

For instance, there was the time I was hired for an exciting job right out of college at Cabela’s corporate office. I spent two years learning under some great teachers and then one day decided I should quit and follow my boyfriend to Wyoming. This was the very boyfriend who had been cheating on me and who had recently been fired from Cabela’s. I lasted all of nine months in Wyoming before literally running home crying to my parents in Colorado.

I’ve made countless other decisions that have hurt me, those I love, and likely people I don’t even know. I’ve lost friendships and romantic relationships because I thought I knew better than God or anyone else. As it turns out, the above mentioned characteristics don’t find their way into very many CEO job descriptions.

Within the last three years I’ve come to the stark realization that God is a far better CEO of my life than I’ll ever make. And He is the type of CEO who I really should consult with on every decision. He’s never too busy for a quick chat, and He literally always has the answer. He wrote a really nice employee handbook for me to refer to (the Bible) and even produced a “cliffnotes” version with one bit of wisdom for every day of the month (Proverbs). “The proverbs of Solomon son of David, king of Israel: for gaining wisdom and instruction; for understanding words of insight; for receiving instruction in prudent behavior, doing what is right and just and fair; for giving prudence to those who are simple, knowledge and discretion to the young—let the wise listen and add to their learning, and let the discerning get guidance for understanding proverbs and parables, the sayings and riddles of the wise.” Proverbs 1:1-6

Yet the tendency remains to try to be the ruler of my own planet, the ruler of my world and chief decision maker in every aspect there within. There are no shortage of decisions each day and our CEO God is there for every one of them. He’s patient, loving, and tender as we navigate our way. If we will simply lean into Him, ask His advice, ask for His discernment, He will show us the way as promised in Proverbs 16:9, “In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps.”

Like any good CEO would, God lets us dream big dreams and make plans for a bright future. He then tenderly shows us the way to the things we want. In exchange, we simply must express our belief and trust in Him as our leader. With such a rich return on investment, I am not sure why it took me so long to put all my eggs in God’s basket.

In the time since hiring God as my CEO, I’ve felt more confident and discerning in my own judgment. With God in “my boat,” I feel good about my choices because I’ve been discussing them with Him throughout the journey. It isn’t perfect. I am still human, and He is still God; but if I had to sum up the results of God’s work as CEO in the life of Chelsea, I’d simply say: peace.

Chelsea Rosty, a Grand Junction native, is a Univ. of Wyoming alum in Marketing and Economics (to say nothing of being on the university Rodeo Team). She is Director of Business Innovation for the City of Montrose. She serves on several local nonprofits and does Crossfit in addition to her duties as a wife and mother of one. She is active at Grace Community Church.